Im so confused!......

foepaw @ 2005-11-06T00:10:00

2005-11-06T05:13:03Z

Not having a car SUCKS..... as do empty promises as well as not being worth other peoples time and energy apparently.

Silly Me and my Girly, Medicine induced, Mood Swings!

2005-11-02T06:17:39Z

Updates

-I am avoiding all forms of work like the plague for some reason.
-I love my new iPod video, but fear for it's safety while in my possesion.
-I was in a car accident. Was not my fault it was a hit and run. I'm fine i guess, although i hit my head and have an annoying bruise on my forehead. My car is fucked yet again, and i have decided that since this is the fifth time something bad has happened to my car, it is bad luck. I toold this to mmy grandfather, and i now now what my my graduation present will prolly be (YAY for gas guzzeling SUVs with steel parts that wont crumple like paper).
-I have rediscovered the joy and pain of ultra fine glitter!
-I still am in serious like with Mikey (god wiill i ever learn!).
-I am wishing i still did opera.
-I still miss my ex sometimes, but i realize its ok and it doesnt mean that im not over him.
-I HATE MY CLASSES!
-Aderol makes me deppressed.
-I realize that everyone requires attenntion, but soome people are a lil annoying/extravagant when tryinng to get that attenntion.
-Im giving up on trying to force friendships (new or old) to work.
-I have decided to stop worrying so much about peoples reaction to what i say..... cuz generlly if they take it the wrong way, i usually dont care anyway.
-and the most important thing is....

... I have realized that i am feelig a llittle lonely cuz it is definitely time for me to find a boyfriend. That void i need filled in my life is the one which my ex left empty. Im tired of hearing that cliche text book answer "you need to make yourself happy".... BEEN THERE, F'ing DID THAT!
I want someone who i can depend on and who wants to depend on me.
I want to have someone who wants to spend as much time with me as they possibly can, and who will want to tell eveyone "this is my boyfriend".
I just want to feel important to someone and be number one in their book, and make them feel the same.

..............................................

2005-10-24T05:43:05Z

I feel un-special and drowned out of everyones else's lives, so i think i will bury myself in work and not care so much about anything in particular for awhile until someone shows a reciprocated bit of interest in me. So if i look spaced out or disinterested for the next few days, I AM! (donnt try and analyze it either, it is what it is and if you dont like what i have to say dont listen (im surprised you were bothering to hear me in the first place!).

foepaw @ 2005-10-13T14:06:00

2005-10-13T18:08:10Z

Your Birthdate: April 10

Your birth on the 10th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life.
The number 1 energy suggest more executive ability and leadership qualities than you path may have indicated.
A birthday on the 10th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.

This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush.
You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.
You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

foepaw @ 2005-10-09T00:59:00

2005-10-09T05:39:19Z

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Michael
2. Khaki (only to Jackie)
3. Penie (only to Alicia)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. indianoutlaw555
2. hippopotamihuntr
3. ( i have only had two )

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my lips
2. my feet
3. my skin tone

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my FAT
2. the gap between my two front teeth
3. my nose

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Italian
2. African American
3. Cherokee

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. spiders
2. dieing alone
3. drag queens

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. animals
2. talking
3. a good outfit

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. uncomfortable but nice looking dress shoes
2. a necklace an old friend gave me that i have onnly worn twice before tonight)
3. my "splurge bought" lime green track jacket

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists) AT THE MOMENT:
1. Christina Aguilera (always and forever)
2. Mariah Carey
3. Green Day

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT
1. "Dirrty"
2. "We Belong Together"
3. "La Tortura"

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ACTORS AT THE MOMENT:
1. Tom Welling
2. Dennis Quaid
3. Vinny

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ACTRESSES AT THE MOMENT:
1. Angelina Jolie
2. Lindsay Lohan
3. Nicole Kidman

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. dating someone older than me
2. working in the field i want to make a career out of
3. cooking

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Trust
2. Someone who truly wants me around and who will go th extra mile to be with me
3. A LOT of sex

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1. I get offended easily
2. I lie so much i often do it when its not even neccissary
3. My real name is not really Michael

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Calves
2. Back
3. Scent

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Not talk
2. Stay Mad
3. Stop falling for guys I cant have

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Art
2. Singing
3. Riding Horses

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. have sex
2. Buy everything on my wish list
3. be thin

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Advertising
2. Actor
3. Magazine (art and design for)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Great Britain
2. Italy
3. Vermont

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE FOR YOUR FUTURE KIDS:
1. Victoria
2. Avivah
3. Michael

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Own at least three different types of Porsches
2. Be famous enough to walk on a red carpet
3. Get married

FIVE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. Patrick
2. Joe T.
3. Racheal Nay
4. Adria
5. Skip

AHHH!

2005-10-04T16:59:27Z

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on a more iinteresting and less morbid note.... I am beggining to see more and more how amazing older more established (not OLD OLD) guys are....

Also, does anyone have any techno, electronic, foriegn (or not) music?

hmmm....

2005-10-03T05:56:52Z

You scored as A MetroHomoSexual. Straight or really, really gay? Metro to the core, but it�s your outward appearance that�s most important. Narcissist? Hell no, you just want to look better and more expensive than everyone else.

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A MetroHomoSexual

75%

Normal, Boring and Gay

65%

An AberHollisterAE Gay or Fratmo

60%

A Jock

55%

A Closet Case

30%

What Kind of Gay Man Are You?
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In Other News.....

I'm OVER a lot of people, and while its healthier and more relaxing.... i find myself completely bored and going mentally stir crazy.

I'm happy with classes, and the lack of work required, PLUS i have found MY new love... Computer Art (which is odd cuz i dont normally like computer's and i avoided them as a tool of art like the plague up until this summer, how silly of me!)

I'm scared of house council's response to my third meeting abscence in a row!

A Few Good Men is sounding good, and im glad that i continued with it for another year.

I told my grandparents im definitely moving to Boston or Nuevo York when i graduate (most likely the former)

I would kinda like to talk to Papa B still from time to time, but im fine w/o doing so and i dont miss him, so im not sure if i should bother calling him?

It sadden's me that a lot of my friends are so critical of each other, and it tires me to always be the one that EVERYONE shares thier opinions of others with, cuz i feel like im always cought in the middle and being a bad friend to another. I guess i wish that humans werent so judgemental. ( I still Love you ALL!)

I miss boys, it;s seems none of my male friends are at all interested in hanging out with me anymore. I'm being OVER estrogenized, and i would like to just be around a guy for a lil while. (and to you girls... I STILL LOVE YOU ALL!)

I need to get some sleep like woah!

And, finally...... I was friended by a stranger whoo has the same name as i, and is also gay....i was llike WTF! im not the only one!!!

An update

2005-09-25T06:02:41Z

Ok havent written in here forever,

So, as obvious, im back at school, and im sorta liking it but in other ways im not. I feel like my clsasses are letting me down, cuz none of themm interest me. Painting would be fun, if i were finallly alllowed to do what i want, but noooooooo (plus its at (nine-o-fuckin clock in the mornin! WHAT IS THAT!)

I'm also a lil upset with my friendships, i feel like there has been some massive shift in my relations with peoople, My everyonnce in awhhile friends have become my EVERY DAY friends (this doesnt bother me at all BTW, i love being clloser to them) BUT, my closer friends from years past, i almost never see anymore, including the closest, who lives right below me. It's sad, but i feel like talking aabout will induce something bad, maybe im just being a emotionally constipated boy in this instance.

Speaking of emotionally constipated boys, I met another one that i like, but again, why would i do that to myself all over again! I wish that my mind were occupied with more with other things, cuz all i think about is guys, and starting a relationship. I'm annoying myself now, no5t to mention stressing myself out. AND WHAT IS WITH ALL THE STR* GUYS ACTING GAY AROUND ME...... if your not gay dont flirt with me, in fact dont even be as nice as you alll seem to be around me, it's fuckin CONFUSING!! IDIOT! That being said, i think iimm oover mike. Thank God.

I text messaged my ex-the day before yesterday to see how he was, I havent really talked to him in like a month and that was only for like 5 mins. He didnt text back, but i'm kinda glad i dunno how a friendship would work between us would work, and in not all too interested to find out.

ok, so now im getting lazy...

- got a new gecko, and adult named hillary. my other one, Lindsay, is not doing so hot.
- I still wor at petco, i am stilll disliking it, and aparently no one else from work likes it anymore.
- i am not liking this whoole being broke thing
- .... i dunno, i felt like i had a lot more to say. OK ttyl buh bye!

On the prowl!

2005-08-22T01:02:39Z

Ok 2 hours til the auction for my newest messenger bag goes of on eBay, i WILL NOT be outbid!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It IS MINE!

on an even odder note...... guess who called me.....well its the 21st.....exactly 8 weeks since he left for boot camp! On 99.9% im over it all, and iim 100% looking for someone new, but the fact that he called me ASAP is a lil unnerving, i mean geez, i thought he would be fully into his military mind set and would have convinced himself he was sick of me (hell i almost did the same of him) and all that hhad gone on before he left. I dunno, i guess im proud of myself, cuz the reason i was sooo surprised he called was that i wasnt looking forward too it nor was i hoping that he would, i just didnt expect it. And im glad.

Anyway,,,, tomorrow is the big day! BACK TO SCHOOL! im so excited.....and a lil sad, cuz i knoow my grandparents are gonnna miss me being around, especially my grandma, and i'm also gonna miss hanging out with Kate for hours at a time. Watching UFO and other supernatural movies and hitting eBAy up like mad.

Im thinking of doing that list of 20 songs thing everyone is doing on LJ but im a lil lazy and need more convincing.

foepaw @ 2005-08-20T01:37:00

2005-08-20T05:54:06Z

So, i got paid again, and i've already put a good dent in my wallet
not TOO bad but i bought two things off of eBay and i got one more to bid on (AND WIN OF COURSE) before the weekend is out. I also need to buy two canndles, and two picture frames before i go back to school. I really have to riegnn iin the spending, cuz i know spending time with friendds costs money too (its true and you know it), as well as i may need to take my gecko to thhe vet, which i hear will cost a good amount of money. there are definitely some movies i would like to buy from blockbuster when they go on sale, and also i need two more polo shirts. Arrg i need that backpay like NOW! (either that or a rich/working BF lol)

On a humorous note, i ate some good ole maryland crabs tonight for the first time in a long time, and they were awesome (god bless OLD BAY!) I'm tempted to get a bunch of ppeople together at goucher, buy some crabs, and have a crab feast on the lawn. that would be fun.

foepaw @ 2005-08-18T21:31:00

2005-08-19T01:35:34Z

Taco Bell is Underrated...and yes i will continue too think outside thhe bun, cuuz out here it is yummy. (Everyone must try at least one crunchwrap supreme!)

Today I decided i was not gonna be able to deal well with stupid people..... to bad it was the beggining oof my shift and 75% of Annapolis is dumb and the rest are evil.

Highlight of the day..... I recieved a simultanious over the shoulder look back..... for those of you who dont know what that is...basically i checked a guy out and he checked me out and then as we passed each other we both looked back after a few yards. It was fun.

Bunnies are really cute.....Please SOMEBODY DONT LET ME GET ONE!

Uggh

2005-08-16T02:13:15Z

ok so today was a lil sucky.

I hhaad my first two cavaties (ever!) filled, and the dentist didnt numb my lower jaw as well as he should have so i felt almost everythhing.......all i can say is OWW, and ii will NOT be having another cavity ever again!

Afterwards i went to the grocery store con mi mama, and for some reason we both attract the most irritating, wiered, confused, ugly, or just plane rude people, when we are out......today was no different......and we all know hhow much i like people (nill) so add pain to that and being really cold, and heads were about to role.

We got home, the macoroni i asked her to buy wasnt what i expected but i felt bad cuz i had made it a point of getting that particular brand thinking it would have a stellar affect upon my pallette (lol i fancied it up there).

When i got home home, my grandmother was in a "difficult" mood; not quite mad or sad or tired, just all of them and something else too. Dinner was completely un appatizing and........

Then my Gecko died as well

Suprisingly after all that im ok, more exhausted then anything. Oh well time to wwatch the new episode of WEEDS!

foepaw @ 2005-08-14T12:14:00

2005-08-14T16:35:02Z

Yesterday was nice, stayed at home all day for the first time in a long time. Watched the notebook for the first time. I ddint think it was very sad at all....then i saw the end....I felt like an unloved middle aged white trash housewife watching another one of Susan Surranden's Life Time movies.

My piercing is doing good hopefully second time is the charm.

I tried too start packing last night, which more or less turned into me sweating bullets in our humid as all hell garage at 9pm, then i decided to try and seperate all thhe junk i would not need, which then led to me searching for all those caps they give you for you apple product wires and placing them with all the wires in one container. then i watched the two MOST annoying episodes of last season's "Sweet Sixteen"; the ones with Ava and the "Crunkest" Girl. then ii proceeded to drop a bag ful of beads all over the floor ,,,,,TWICE. Needless too say my packing/organizing wasnt extremely succsseful.

Now im off to Towson

YAY PACKAGES!!!!!!

2005-08-13T18:43:30Z

I LOVE recieving packages in the mail! Today i got three!

i got my new Apple Mighty Mouse, and let me say it is saw awesome its scary. Lub It!

then i got two things i ordered from eBay.... a car charger (that cost $0.01) for my phone, and a car charger for my iPod mini ($0.99).

Both of thee things i got on eBay came with free gifts...an LED Light and a cell phone sticker antenna thing.

This has all made my day quite..... Delightfull!

YAY I'm a MAC Loser too!

2005-08-10T23:39:04Z

So i finally got my new Mac Powerbook yesterday, and its so awesome......(i got the adoraable 12" version). It has a superdrive so i can burn dvds now i think. To be honest i really haave no clue what the hell its capable of but ii know its a lot, the only thing that are pissin me off are that i seem to hit the keys differently, causing repeated letters; also my mouse died, and im currently without a right click option! Thankkfully i spent a ridiculous amount of money on the new apple mighty mouse which is on its way to my hoouse as i type. YAY!

Im so excited to go back to school and se everyone, and not work, and have my room all to myself! I'll miss not having hw, BUT i will not miss evil Anapolis Shoppers and standing at a register all day. This week especially sucks cuz the new cashier (the onne suspected of stealing money from the register) was n a car accident and so i hhad to work mornings this week and....well we all know i am no morning person!

As for the move in, i need to find some time REALLY SOON to organize my suff so i wont bring so much uneeded crap with me (of course now is not a good time lol), and buy some stuff i need.

oh my!

2005-08-09T03:20:51Z

Its all over!

2005-08-08T03:10:16Z

OMG,

so i just watched the series finale of Queer as Folk and it made me really sad, cuz its all over now. It's wiered how sentiment lays itself out.

just a thought.

not so bad after all.

2005-07-15T04:43:57Z

Ok so for a lil while at the beggining of the week things were getting pretty sucky. At least in my mind. I was actually starting to get deppressed by the thought that i may never get anywhere with mike,. Ironically i read this in an article titled "10 Rules for Gay Dating".....

#1 Avoid straight folks.
Of course, this only applies to gay folks. If you are straight, then the rule is; avoid gay folks. These first four rules fall under the category of “What Are You Looking For?”. If you are gay, falling for a straight person is a sure-fire way to get hurt. And vice-versa. Don’t believe me? Just watch The Object of My Affection or Billy’s Hollywood Screen Kiss. Don’t ever go into any relationship with the thought, “Well I can change him/her.” Kiss of death.....

....the problem is that i accept his straightness, but it doesnt stop me from liking him like mad.

Oh well, corrine told me today that she knows a freshmn that she would like me to meet, and ironically we've acknowleged two "signs" that seem to point toward good things from this meeting.

Mike wasnt the only reason for my distress earlier though,.....f\i had to work another four day stretch. For the first three days i hated my job. I had customers snap at me, and managers who didnt do anything, messed up registers, and ignorant, stupid, ugly, and annoying customers.....the people in annapolis are...well....i just dont know...but they sure are something. Tonight was awesome, i worked with all of my favorite people and i didnt really have to do anything (which is how i like it). Afterward we went to Chili's and ate cake, drank, and gossiped. It was fun.

My grandmother confirmed today that she was in fact gonna buy me an iBook, and even more awesome is the fact that i will get ANOTHER iPod mini for free. Yes that means i will have 2 fully functioning computers and 2 fully functioning iPods. A bit much, and i doubt i will know what to do with all of them.

Ok well i guess thats a lot of writing for now, so i will stop and revel in the fact that aweka from today i will be in MA visiting Elisa. HIT ME!

You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern

At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent

You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet

Your caffeine addiction level: low

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Crafty Crafty Me!

2005-07-07T03:41:59Z

Ok so maybe not original, but something i have wanted to try for myself for awhile. I just decided im gonna revamp a pair of jeans that i dont wear often anymore. My weapons of choice will include a cheese grated, bleach, a wood burner, a knife, and maybe paint.

ok.......i'll admit, this new proyecto was yet another result of me watching too much t.v. There is a new Levi's commercial where the guy re-creates his old worn out jeans and gives the remakes to his girlfriend and keeps his for himself (clever fella)

I'm thinking of doing some clothing sketches too, i know i'm not a fashion student, but its another form of art, and its kinda cool. I also need to start keeping a sketch book around me more, because recently ideas have been popping into my head left and right and i need to document them for later execution.

Actually, today has been a day filled with fashion on my mind, i was even thinking of an angel-esque type costume for next halloween....that is, if im skinny by then......and it would be nice if i could find myself a handsome devil to match!

AHHHHHH Toooo MaNy IDEAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You Are Opium!
You like to have fun and enjoy life. Reeeeeally enjoy life. If it isn't fast, loud, or extreme forget it. You value friendship and are loyal and will not hesiste to go off if someone crosses you.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?

That KINDA sucked.

2005-07-05T20:42:42Z

Ok, im back from my three day holiday with kristen and mike (mostly mike since kristen had to work).

I think i learned my lesson finally, I love Kristen to death, but im never gonna make specific plans with her, or at least rely on those plans, from now on its gonna be the play as you go with her (and thats still cool!)

As for mike and gunther, well i went OCD on thier apartment, so its clean (for the moment). they had a mini party, and i got drunk, but nothing embarrasing happened. I do however feel a bit sad, I REALLY REALLY like mike, and everyone including himself knows it. I'm a lil confused about how to act around him, and what exactly he feel about my actions when i am around him. Apparently all the girls i know and know him think he may be gay, two parent i know also, and two guys as well (one of which is gay), Ironically im still writing him of as str8, but these peoples opinions do screw with my head from time to time. I really hope i didnt ruin his 4th, by dragging him places he didnt wanna go or keepin him from other friends (his response to this was "thats nonsense"; but he is tooooo nice, so sometimes i dont know if i should always believe him). I ersonally didnt ejoy myself cuz im silly and get jealouse, and gunthers female freinds showed up. As we all know im am not one for strangers, or unforeseen situations with flirtatious girls who ruin what lil plans im trying to stick with and change the dynamics of things. I dunno, im not sure what im trying to say, so if non f what i just said made sense dont worry about it i was just ranting. (p.s. the girls were very nice though i just wished that the one that stayed the longest would have left earlier and not tried to make new plans!!!)

Also i had to waste more money than i thought, and i hate borrowing money from people! but all will be good when im paid on friday.

I think im getting a lil lonely and want someone special for my own, im gonna try to be less clingy toward mike, and i hope that when he leaves for hungary for a month that i will be able to focus more on other things/people. OK sucky entry, i know, maybe i will make a funner one later.

Todays over (Finally) ...and only one fatality =:(

2005-07-03T06:20:35Z

OK, well it wasnt really that long of a day, but a dwarf hamster did perish. I took him to the vet after we found him all sprawled out and breathing w/ difficulty, unfortunately he died before the doc even looked at him. On a side note..... whoever said Petco doesnt care for thier pets properly can suck it.....cuz we were
abut to spend over 250 dollars to treat (or if needed euthanize) a $10 hamster; it was supposssed to cost $150 alone to walk in the door of the emergenc night vet.

Moving on to happier things, I DONT HAVE TO WORK FOR THE NEXT THREE DAYS! And i get to hang out with my favorite cutie as well as Kristen and Joe and Gunther! And although im not all for stupid drunkeness, i do plan to get crunked on teh fourth, I just feell the need to get stupid and let loose and de-stress!

Ok well im tired, and i need to stop downloading old music vids. BUT COMMENT PEOPLE GEEZ! OK Night!

You Are Rocky Road Ice Cream

Unpredictable and wild, you know how to have fun.
You're also a trendsetter who takes risks with new things.
You know about the latest and greatest - and may have invented it.
You are most compatible with vanilla ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

A recent udate on my confusions

2005-07-01T17:45:09Z

Ok so im returning to the LJ to give me another thing to occupy my mind; Cuz living at home with the G'rents is annoying and boring (thats why i will be living at school next summer).

As many of you now i am through with an unhealthy relationship, and i realized that even if things turned into an abnormal recreation or a romantic comedy and he came back from his new life experiment and said all the things i've needed to hear for the last four years....i really dont think it matter to me anymore (and thats a wonderful thing, like freedom)!

Enough said about him, moving on....... me+money+boredom= BAD BAD BAD! I have gone crazy on eBay and the other day, i started out with over $260 and ended the day with less than 90! (f'n $54 sweatshirt!)

Work is kinda sucky still, but im tolerating it. I took off a bunch of days this month though. The 3,4, and 5, i will be down in towson spending time with Kris, and.......well, you know =;) (and let me just say that my crush on him is becoming unbearable, and its hard to ignore that so many other people keep telling me they think he is gay....last night there was a really awkward 15 mins, where i had no clue what to do, and all he did was sit there and stare at me, WHAT IS THAT!) Im also going to visit Elisa (my South African Queen/Pretend Girlfriend) in MA at the end of the month! Wooo HOOO PLANES! I bought my own tickets (so proud of me for that)

I almost made a big mistake.....ANOTHER PET.....but i made the right choice....i wanted a Parrotlet.....but i knew i would never wanna deal with a bird after the first week or two. Plus they are expensive as shit!

I have been getting more into the "i want to create art" mode lately, and have been inspired so by the elfwood site (mostly the guided tour page) http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/tours2/ . Im thinking about joining it and putting up some work when i have access to a good scanner and some appropriate pieces.

I am also looking forward to learning more about computer art and imaging this semester, i used to hate the concept, but im learning to embrace it (plus it might be getting me an iBook from my G'rents!).

All in all things are good with me for the moment, and hopefully they will stay that way so i will have more things to say on this thing more frequently.

you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.

which happy bunny are you?
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Your dating personality profile:

Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.

Your date match profile:

Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Stylish
2. Romantic
3. Big-Hearted
4. Sensual
5. Liberal
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Adventurous
8. Traditional
9. Funny
10. Shy

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Romantic
2. Practical
3. Outgoing
4. Adventurous
5. Stylish
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Sensual
8. Intellectual
9. Big-Hearted
10. Conservative

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HAHA YEAH!

2005-06-17T05:00:55Z

Would anyone want to bang you? by phobia
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Its been a long time, i shouldnt have left you, without a dope beat ta step to....

2005-05-14T02:12:48Z

Ok, so i didnt know whether or not i was ever gonna write in this thing again, i've been realy down lately, things with me and Papa B have been really sucky, and not in a good way (lol) im just tired of having my emotions fucked with, intentionally or not. i thought i was going to go into detali about it here but now i think im not....i guess to generalize things i will say that after four years it seems like all the love, emotion, time, energy i put into what i thought we had, it feels like it was never good enough, and a lil like im not good enough. After that long, even if he is uncomfortable with the idea of a gay relationship, i would think that i made him hapy enough and we shared enough of our hearts for it to not matter, at least between us. Alas, i guess i thought wrong.

As for other news, im home and bored, and im irritated, i dont like my job, i want a new one. But until then it looks like its petco for me. I didnt want to get right back to work, but i think if i dont i will either be nagged to death or bored to death; my guess is both.

I no longer have my guinea pigs. I'm a lil sad, but a lot relieved. The costs, maitenance, smell, sqweaks, and lack of space finally got to me. At least i still have my geckos, they will keep me company next semester.

im really tired, but i better get my energy up, cuz im planning on seriously getting in shape this summer. I have a whole diet planned out and im making plans for better eating habits as well as excercise. I even asked my grandfather to buy me an elliptical, i feel wiered saying this but im kinda siked about it. Oh well, i just really hope it lasts.

Off to the Races!!!

2005-03-18T07:33:15Z

Ok so yesterday was a very odd day. I got up a 2:30 (when my high-schoolin bf gets OUT of school, HA!) And i then proceeded to play a Horsey Themed computer game for like 9 hours!

Today....ok well lets just say that today was sweet and sour. The First half sucked ass! First i had to get up early to take my car to the shop. My granpa followed me in his truck. I so hate driving with him following me cuz im stressed about doing everything correctly ad not speeding. Despite my efforts, he still said i sped when i was crossing the bay bridge (big fuckin whoop!) Ok so we drop my car off for the 1 o'clock aptmt. We go to the Navy Exchange Store (which btw i found out my g-pa is important enough to park in one of those reserved spaces! so cool) and the commicery. When we return at 2:30 i find that my car hasnt even been touched!! when they finally bring it in they tell us that they dont know when it will be ready cuz they may need to dismantle all of the wireing (only good thing i see about that is i may get a rental). Well heres where things get tricky. I told my Gpa i was going to go see a friend at there school this evening; i was actually gonna be with Papa B. From then on everytime i make a quick decision on how to play things out rightsomething else cahllenges it, from me obviously not gonna be driving his truck and using gas and putting on miles, to my friend not being at home to pick me up, to me leaving my house key with my car keys at the shop. In the end after an extra hour and millions of phone calls, a successful plan was set into motion. God, if only i could be honest, life would be sooooooooooo much simpler and easier.

Once i was with Papa B everything was awesome, lately i have been having more and more fun with him everytime we do something together! Tonight we drove to Delaware and went to Dover Downs. It was so cool, we bet on and watched a bunch of harness racing (both the trotters and the pacers) as well the simulcasted thouroghbred races at Santa Anita, Oaklawn, Charles Town, and Turfland. With my skills at picking horses we Won $15. Then we ate and then he had to get a lil over-zealous and we lost $35, but eh whatev it was still really fun. After we left Delaware we went back to his house and half watched a movie, then he dropped me off and i snuck back into my house. Now im tired and i have to go to icky work tomorrow so i shall end this now! tty'all lata!